In Memory of:: Andrea Harriet Wyatt
Your Name: Lynn
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: I miss you Annie. It's been almost a year and I still cry when I think about never being able to see you again. You helped me feel alive and you helped me smile when I truly needed to. I can't ever forget you and I wouldn't want to. I hope your pain has ended and that you can see me from up there in Heaven. I know you are where you always wanted to be... with God and you are an angel doing His work. I love you and will always remember your infectious spirit.

Sunday, February 27th 2005 - 06:06:12 PM

 

In Memory of:: Paul Codyer
Your Name: Cady D.
Relationship: neice
Memoriam: Its been three weeks sence you have died.
12-30-1950 to 2-6-2005 you were 55 years old with liver cancer, I can still see you when i close my eyes you are my favorite uncle and always will be see you soon i love you lots and i will never forget you.


love your neice

Cady

Saturday, February 26th 2005 - 08:36:50 AM

 

In Memory of:: steven
Your Name: jess
Relationship: best mate
Memoriam: we miss u so much ur awesome i wish i could have told u all the things i wanted to say u were always the best at everything we loved u so much we still do i wud give anything to see u again thank u for being awesome we will never forget u

"A hand above the water
An angel reaching for the sky
Is it raining in heaven -
Do you want us to cry?"

steven kyle michaels 8/2/90 - 22/9/04

Friday, February 25th 2005 - 07:55:02 PM

 

In Memory of:: Renee
Your Name: Elspeth
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: I know you hurt so long and so bad. You cared so much about everyone you knew. I almost went in the same direction tonight, those pill bottles were calling me home. I couldn't do it because all I could think about was you yelling at me everytime I reached this state. How many lectures, how you told me how horrible it was to try and not succeed. How it left you impaired and how much more pain you were in, mentally and physically. I miss you so much my sister, as that is how I felt about you and you know that. Sometimes I feel like you are watching me, maybe tonight you are.

Friday, February 25th 2005 - 06:34:13 PM

 

In Memory of:: George R. Demar
Your Name: Andrea R. Thurmond
Relationship: My father
Memoriam: My father took his life at age 40, father's day of 1994. If he only knew what I know now about bipolar. He never knew he had it. I just now learned what bipolar is and have gone 26 years untreated. I have it and I see it in my son also. I am rapid cycling, sometimes up to 8 times a day. I can get the help for us now, that I wish he could have got for himself back then.

Friday, February 25th 2005 - 05:38:46 PM

 

In Memory of:: my MOM/Jerry Lynn/Thelma AKIN
Your Name: Ginger Allen
Relationship: self
Memoriam: I pray that God continue to stand by my side and see me thru!I pray that I survive my EXTREME RAPID CYCLE Bipolar II(cycling 4-5 times a day) and desire to FOLLOW MY MOMS suicidal desires and the PAIN WE SHARE & have dealt with daily not knowing WHY.- my mother left me almost 27 years ago when she took her life- God rest her soul. She did for everyone except herself. She had no idea there was an illness call Bipolar-and left 3 young girls and a husband and SO MANY that LOVED HER.

Friday, February 25th 2005 - 01:03:31 AM

 

In Memory of:: christina ramos
Your Name: gina
Relationship: her other side
Memoriam: she was very confused pretty muched obout everything.she had a pure and evil side.being pure to others and evil to herself

Thursday, February 17th 2005 - 10:56:44 AM

 

In Memory of:: Roy and Pete Willis
Your Name: Kathy Flurry
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: To my two brothers who took their life 23 yrs apart-I struggle to stay alive from this cancer I have,with no known cure. Pete you took your life 15 months ago and you knew I didn't know how long I have left. But I will not give up like the two of you. I will stay beside your two children and try to help mend their broken hearts. I pray that GOD will give me the years you two thru away.

Wednesday, February 16th 2005 - 12:42:17 PM

 

In Memory of:: Sally
Your Name: Ant
Relationship: My Mother
Memoriam: In memory of a woman who carried our world on her back
 

Monday, February 14th 2005 - 07:13:11 PM

 

In Memory of:: Sally
Your Name: Ant
Relationship: My Mother

Monday, February 14th 2005 - 07:12:12 PM

 

In Memory of:: all who went away too soon
Your Name: kimberly
Relationship: friend

Friday, February 11th 2005 - 09:49:23 AM

 

In Memory of:: Dave Chamberlain
Your Name: Shawn
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: In memory of a great friend who left us too soon. Your jokes, music, smiles, and laughs will stay with me forever. Rest in peace friend.

Monday, February 7th 2005 - 09:29:38 AM

 

In Memory of:: Alex Torres
Your Name: Michelle Torres
Relationship: Twin Sister
Memoriam: My brother did not have bipolar, but he was depressed. I miss him more than words can ever say. He passed away May 31,2004.

Thursday, February 3rd 2005 - 07:11:09 PM

 

In Memory of:: jacqueline kellie nunn
Your Name: miriam
Relationship: "mother", mentor, best friend
Memoriam: God sent an angel into my life. That angel, was you. It's been a year and a half since you self distructed." oh how i miss you so". i have cried and suffered so much over your death, but i do not blame you. you didn't know that anyone cared enough to suffer over you. even though i told you every day, you still didn't believe it. it just wasn't enough, for you were in so much pain. this i understand. i know you are in a better place now. i just can't believe that the lord, would punish you for this sin...cuz u just didn't know any better. i know you are in heaven. i know you are happy and smiling down at me. i love you kellie, my daughter, now and forever... good-bye, my child; be at peace.

Thursday, January 27th 2005 - 02:05:03 PM

 

In Memory of:: Jamie
Your Name: Alison
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: Although it has been 7 years, I still think of you everyday. I am sorry that we could not help you and it hurts to know that you spent the last part of your life in such turmoil, brother. You will forever remain in my heart and in the hearts of those whose lives you touched.

Wednesday, January 26th 2005 - 10:25:12 AM

 

In Memory of:: Geneva Sapp
Your Name: Joe
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: I love you Sis. I'm sorry we alienated you for so long. I'm sorry for everything. You were right. You were always right. Thank you for telling me the truth. Find peace.

Saturday, January 22nd 2005 - 07:02:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: JOE HATSELL & BRAD FLORA
Your Name: SANDRA DESPAIN
Relationship: FRIEND
Memoriam: JOE THE KIDS MISS YOU. YOUR KINDNESS AND LOVE WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. IF I HAD KNOWN YOUR ILLNESS WAS KILLING YOU, IF I COULD JUST TELL YOU WHAT AN INFLUENCE YOU HAD ON US ALL.

BRAD, YOU WERE PART OF THE IN CROWD IN SCHOOL. YOU WERE FUNNY AND GOOD LOOKING. YOUR SMILE LIT UP THE ROOM. I WONDER HOW YOU EVER FELT SO EMPTY, WITH SO MANY TO LOVE AND ADMIRE YOU. YOU SHALL NEVER BE FOROTTEN. FOR YOUR CHILD REMAINS THE BEST OF YOU.

Friday, January 21st 2005 - 09:50:13 AM

 

In Memory of:: catherines
Your Name: shawna aka texaschick
Relationship: friend.
Memoriam: I miss you catherines, i wish you had not done what you done. We all love you and miss you in bipolarchat. I am still shocked, But i understand has we bipolars all do, sometimes life gets to hard to handle. God Bless you, I love you. You are greately missed.

Thursday, January 20th 2005 - 07:56:12 PM

 

In Memory of:: Derek Anthony Grubbs
Your Name: Erika
Relationship: someone special
Memoriam:
Well first of all, i want to get somethng straight, i know someone alredy wrote something on him, but he or she got the story screwed up, first of all Derek was not sucidal, and second of all he was not on Drugs or had he been drinking, i know this because he was with me the night he was taken away from this world, and for this person to say this is wrong, we were having fun talking and playng tennis, yes so what if it happened to be at 230am not all people are out getting drunk, high, or getting some. It hurts when people come up to me and say that he was drinking or had been popping pills or on drugs. id really appreciate it if your going to say something get the freaking story correct.
Im sorry for the people who havee lost someone here, i know what your feeling.

Wednesday, January 19th 2005 - 02:24:58 PM

 

In Memory of:: Derek Anthony Grubbs
Your Name: anon
Relationship: Someone special
Memoriam:
Well first of all, i want to get somethng straight, i know someone alredy wrote something on him, but he or she got the story screwed up, first of all Derek was not sucidal, and second of all he was not on Drugs or had he been drinking, i know this because he was with me the night he was taken away from this world, and for this person to say this is wrong, we were having fun talking and playng tennis, yes so what if it happened to be at 230am not all people are out getting drunk, high, or getting some. It hurts when people come up to me and say that he was drinking or had been popping pills or on drugs. id really appreciate it if your going to say something get the freaking story correct.
Im sorry for the people who havee lost someone here, i know what your feeling.

Wednesday, January 19th 2005 - 02:22:55 PM

 

In Memory of:: Derek Anthony Grubbs
Your Name: anon
Relationship: Someone special
Memoriam: Well first of all, i want to get somethng straight, i know someone alredy wrote something on him, but he or she got the story screwed up, first of all Derek was not sucidal, and second of all he was not on Drugs or had he been drinking, i know this because he was with me the night he was taken away from this world, and for this person to say this is wrong, we were having fun talking and playng tennis, yes so what if it happened to be at 230am not all people are out getting drunk, high, or getting some. It hurts when people come up to me and say that he was drinking or had been popping pills or on drugs. id really appreciate it if your going to say something get the freaking story correct.
Im sorry for the people who havee lost someone here, i know what your feeling.
 

Wednesday, January 19th 2005 - 02:16:14 PM

 

In Memory of:: Jeremy Vanderpool
Your Name: Susan
Relationship: wife & eternal friend
Memoriam: If only I could turn back the clock, I would have been there for you - like you begged me to be. It took you dying for me (and probably many others) to really truly, believe and understand the depth of your pain. I know now that you meant it when you said the best years of your life were with me, and that you couldn't bear to go on living without me because I was the love of your life. You were the love of mine, too, sweetie. I don't want to go on without you either. I died with you, yet I have to stay here and raise our son who will probably struggle with the same issues; he is a miniature you. I want to join you so badly, but the truest love I can give to you now is to give him all the love and support that you needed but didn't get at that crucial final hour. I will love you eternally and count the days until we are reunited but as our best and purest selves. Please reach out to me, if you can somehow, to ease the pain and help me go on. It is almost unbearable.

Friday, January 14th 2005 - 11:34:55 PM

 

In Memory of:: David Harry Richmond
Your Name: Sandra L. Berry
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: I am writing this in tribute to my father, who died May 6, 1994. We miss you so much dad. We could see the daily pain you went through. The emotional highs and lows. You meant so much to us. You gave so much to your family with your beautiful voice and gift of your guitar playing. Now I also have to deal with the daily struggles of a son who suffers with the same disease. We do all we can to help him.
We love you always and will remember you in our hearts forever.

Wednesday, January 12th 2005 - 04:28:15 PM

 

In Memory of:: ALL OF THOSE WHO FELT THIS WEAS THE TIME TO GO
Your Name: CHERI CUMMINGS
Relationship: FRIEND TO ALL
Memoriam: I JUST CAME UPON THIS SITE A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO, WHILE RESEARCHING MOOD STABILIZERS ON THE NET. I AM ONE OF THE "LUCKY" ONES WHO ARE NOW TRYING MEDICATON TO BE HAPPY. I AM PRAYING THAT THIS IS WHAT THE HIGHER UP WANTS FOR ME. I AM NOT A BIG CHURCH PERSON, BUT I DO BELIEVE. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW WHO LOST SOMEONE TO SUICIDE I FEEL FOR YOU. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT HUNDREDS OF TIMES. WHY I HAVE NEVER DID IT I REALLY DONT KNOW. I DO HAVE A CHILD WHOSE SMILE CAN MAKE MY SADDEST FEELING DISAPPEAR. i JUST LOST MY FATHER TWO YEARS AGO FROM ILLNESS. HE WAS A VERY SAD MAN WHO WANTED TO DIE FOR A LONG TIME. HE WENT THROUGH ALL THE STAGES OF ACCEPTING DEATH. IT WAS THE HARDEST THING I HAD TO GO THROUGH. HE COULDN'T TALK OR WALK OR COMMUNICATE AT ALL WHEN HE WAS CALLED HOME. I GO TO THE CEMETARY ALMOST ON A DAILY BASIS. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WISH I WOULD HAVE DONE FOR HIM. I KNOW HE LOOKS DOWN AT ME AND IS SMILING. I TRY TO MAKE HIM PROUD WITH EVERY DECISION I MAKE. JUST A WORD TO HIM, DADDY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND MISS YOU EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY.

Sunday, January 9th 2005 - 07:21:54 PM

 

In Memory of:: ALL OF THOSE WHO FELT THIS WEAS THE TIME TO GO
Your Name: CHERI CUMMINGS
Relationship: FRIEND TO ALL
Memoriam: I JUST CAME UPON THIS SITE A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO, WHILE RESEARCHING MOOD STABILIZERS ON THE NET. I AM ONE OF THE "LUCKY" ONES WHO ARE NOW TRYING MEDICATON TO BE HAPPY. I AM PRAYING THAT THIS IS WHAT THE HIGHER UP WANTS FOR ME. I AM NOT A BIG CHURCH PERSON, BUT I DO BELIEVE. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW WHO LOST SOMEONE TO SUICIDE I FEEL FOR YOU. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT HUNDREDS OF TIMES. WHY I HAVE NEVER DID IT I REALLY DONT KNOW. I DO HAVE A CHILD WHOSE SMILE CAN MAKE MY SADDEST FEELING DISAPPEAR. i JUST LOST MY FATHER TWO YEARS AGO FROM ILLNESS. HE WAS A VERY SAD MAN WHO WANTED TO DIE FOR A LONG TIME. HE WENT THROUGH ALL THE STAGES OF ACCEPTING DEATH. IT WAS THE HARDEST THING I HAD TO GO THROUGH. HE COULDN'T TALK OR WALK OR COMMUNICATE AT ALL WHEN HE WAS CALLED HOME. I GO TO THE CEMETARY ALMOST ON A DAILY BASIS. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WISH I WOULD HAVE DONE FOR HIM. I KNOW HE LOOKS DOWN AT ME AND IS SMILING. I TRY TO MAKE HIM PROUD WITH EVERY DECISION I MAKE. JUST A WORD TO HIM, DADDY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND MISS YOU EC\VERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY.

Sunday, January 9th 2005 - 07:20:56 PM

 

In Memory of:: Randy Huber
Your Name: chandra auberry
Relationship: best bud, future girlfriend -- we planned
Memoriam: I want to talk to you. I want to call you, save you. Life is so unfair. People cannot understand us. Life is cruel. Life is unfair. We deserved a chance to know each other. How can I call you now? I want to talk to you. I miss you. I understand. I wish I could have helped you burden the awful, I could have understood. I wanted to help. I loved you and I love you still. I know others can't understand. I want you back. I wanted to bear life with you. I need you back. I need a second chance. I desperately need and want you here. I want you back. Help! You are lost and I can't bear it. I cannot comprehend. RETURN TO ME.

Tuesday, January 4th 2005 - 10:01:11 PM

 

In Memory of:: Papaw
Your Name: Cali
Relationship: Grandaughter
Memoriam: Papaw, I love you and I miss you. You left us and without real reason. I really wish you were still here and that I could of really known who you were as a person. I didnt really see it, I was too young. It would seem that now we all suffer. I wondered why you left us like that, but now its clear and I feel your pain at times. In your name I will do great in life and make you proud. I love you Papaw.

Tuesday, January 4th 2005 - 08:34:56 PM

 

In Memory of:: Missy Vilot
Your Name: Heather Vilot Yerrick
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: It has been almost two year since I heard your voice
Seen your face or with you rejoice
Since we shared our times or sad
or remembered all the times we have had....
You left us so quickly, much too soon you see,
We'll now miss the times, the ones that could have been
If things have been different, what then?...
Would you have been a model? The beauty was there,
Beauty undeniable, in your eyes, your hair...
Would you have been a musician? It was a plain fact, that you could enchange your listeners with you sax.
Now that your gone, you've sent us your friends the mockingbird with your voice and the ladybug with you flight...
We could guess all day of what cuold have been
But these things we knw are so true,
You were our beloved sister, aunt, niece and friend
And know we will always miss you...XOXOX
If things had been differnt



 

Monday, January 3rd 2005 - 01:46:02 PM

 

In Memory of:: Deborah Richardson
Your Name: Zane Richardson
Relationship: Aunt
Memoriam: Although it has been years, it seems like yesterday that I was 6 yrs old and brushing your hair. We all miss you. All my love.

Wednesday, December 29th 2004 - 11:06:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: Craig Spencer
Your Name: Denae S.
Relationship: Grand Daughter
Memoriam: when i heard that you died, i was crushed, but when i heard that you took your own life, i was scared. you were my role model. i love you grandpa, there isnt a day that goes by without me thinking about you. i hope that u found grandma in heaven. i miss you, but i know ill see you again sometime.

Wednesday, December 29th 2004 - 02:01:58 AM

 

In Memory of:: Candice Doucette
Your Name: Cady Doucette
Relationship: cuz
Memoriam: my dad Dana told me about the death and showed me a news paper add of candice and i was 11 and now im 13
i sow some other people talk about Candice and if you want to e mail me my e-mail address is deadrose10183@yahoo.com

Monday, December 27th 2004 - 07:14:58 PM

 

In Memory of:: catherines
Your Name: sammie
Relationship: friend from bp chat
Memoriam: i only knew you for a short time but you will be missed we all love and miss you hope you found the peace you were looking for

Saturday, December 25th 2004 - 07:42:10 PM

 

In Memory of:: ashleigh
Your Name: samantha
Relationship: COUSIN
Memoriam: oh god how I miss you I have never understood why I love you and wish you had cried out to me I maybe could have helped I could have gotten you somewhere safe i love you and miss you love you forever until we meet again in heaven I hope to see you there tonight I am feeling like taking my life and it reminded me of you and what I would have said to you

Saturday, December 25th 2004 - 07:30:30 PM

 

In Memory of:: Elizabeth *Zilly* Boron
Your Name: Laura *Aruali*
Relationship: close friend
Memoriam: You'll never know how much I miss you. You're the only one who ever understood what was going on inside of me. 5 years + has gone past since the day you took yourself away from me and we still don't know if you were about to call for help. I love you, and I hope you're with me wherever you are.
Love always,
your soul sister forever
Laura

Thursday, December 23rd 2004 - 07:41:03 AM

 

In Memory of:: James & Ellen Crump
Your Name: Patricia Hines
Relationship: Parents
Memoriam: As their pain is gone, mine has started. No matter what, I love them and miss them more than I could ever have imagined. I hope to understand better why they had to die. To kie so tragically.

Wednesday, December 22nd 2004 - 05:56:03 PM

 

In Memory of:: Steven D. Hamby
Your Name: Karen Hamby
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: Until we meet again my angel,always know how very happy you made me and how very much I love you.

Tuesday, December 21st 2004 - 08:28:09 PM

 

In Memory of:: Collen
Your Name: Katherine
Relationship: niecie
Memoriam: I miss her so mouch i just wish that she was still here with us today but i guess she had to do what she had to do.

I will always love you
Katherine

Monday, December 20th 2004 - 10:23:32 AM

 

In Memory of:: Randy S Hepner
Your Name: Ronnie C Hepner
Relationship: Twin-Brother
Memoriam: "In loving memory: Brother, Son & Friend"
Peace Love & Eternal Happiness

Wednesday, December 8th 2004 - 11:22:44 AM

 

In Memory of:: Derek
Your Name: Joanne & Dave
Relationship: Mom and And Dad
Memoriam: We love you and miss you so much

Sunday, December 5th 2004 - 06:45:53 PM

 

In Memory of:: Anna
Your Name: Laurel
Relationship: Friend

Thursday, December 2nd 2004 - 09:13:33 PM

 

In Memory of:: Candice Doucette
Your Name: Lindsey
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: I already wrote something about my cousin in here but its been a year and 7 months sents she's died and I still think about her everyday...I miss her so much...I never thought anything like this would happen to my family its changed us all so much...Candice everyone misses you soooooooo much.I still remember hanging out with u and watching movies and talking to you, you always understood me...I didn't want to believe you died I kept hoping it was a dream...I always thought you would be here for me I was 11 when u died I'm 13 now...Rest In Peace Candice...I Love and Miss You So Much...

Saturday, November 27th 2004 - 08:22:29 PM

 

In Memory of:: Joseph James Guadagno
Your Name: Dad
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Joe: You gave so much joy to so many.
Please forgive me for not hearing your pain.
You were the love and pride of my life.
 

Saturday, November 27th 2004 - 11:50:52 AM

 

In Memory of:: Candice Doucette
Your Name: Cady
Relationship: cusion
Memoriam: Candice i never got to meet you but i heard alot
i sow a picture of you and it freaked me out that someone as pretty as you would do drugs everyone misses you and loves you

see you in 60 years



you cusion you never met

Cady

Wednesday, November 24th 2004 - 04:35:13 AM

 

In Memory of:: Tate Strickler
Your Name: Robin Strickler
Relationship: Spouse
Memoriam: Tate,
The past 5 years have been the most wonderful ones for me. I am so glad our lives crossed paths you made me the happiest person in the world. There is one gift that you have given me that I am so grateful for our beautiful sweet baby girl Rose. I dont know what I would do without her. I want to thank you for this wonderful angel that you and I created.She looks so much like you and I know you will always be with me. Rose is growing so quickly she is now 8 months old. We love you very much and always will. Now you are resting peacefully in GODS arms. As the Mariah Carey and Boys II Men song says "I know you are shining down on me from heaven." Someday we will meet again.

Saturday, November 20th 2004 - 10:45:55 AM

 

In Memory of:: Alun Edward Foulkes
Your Name: Anne-Marie
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Dear beloved Alun..brother to Loui,Anne-Marie,Dolly,Carol, Tony and John. We miss you loads. you died on the 24 October 2004 but you live on through us all, especially mum and Dave. Rest in Peace now bro, love you always.xx

Friday, November 19th 2004 - 12:37:15 PM

 

In Memory of:: Matthew Mayer
Your Name: Tammy Robinson
Relationship: Friend and Neighbour
Memoriam: This is remembrance of a young man that could not find his way in life after his mother walked out on him 6 year ago. Not a day went by that Matt could forget the hurt and rejection his mother thrust upon him.
Today we sit here with swollen eyes from the many tears we have cried for Matthew. If only we could have shown him our tears of concern and care before it was too late.

Matt, you will never be forgotten

Monday, November 8th 2004 - 07:11:13 PM

 

In Memory of:: Marilyn Margaret
Your Name: Beth
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: You told me you'd be all right. You told me not to worry. I told you I loved you.

Then you left me forever. I will always love you, remember you, miss you. It's been 27 years and now I find I wish I had gone with you. What a battle this life has been.

But you are free.

Monday, November 8th 2004 - 02:26:54 AM

 

In Memory of:: John Ernest Putland
Your Name: Erin
Relationship: Only Daughter
Memoriam: Father,
We never got the chance to know each other and i have always wished to show you how well i have grown up i want you to know i dont care about the past, and that i wish you didn't have to resort to death. I have always loved you and hope we may meet again.
Your daughter forever crying out for you.

Saturday, October 30th 2004 - 03:20:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: Scot Sammarco
Your Name: Anyonymous
Memoriam: Scot, May you now be free of pain, free of all the bad feelings, free of it all. May peace be with you. You are missed more than you could have ever imagined.

Friday, October 29th 2004 - 05:46:26 PM

 

In Memory of:: Everyone who has commited suicide and those affected by it
Your Name: Mary Devlin
Memoriam: For those who have commited suicide, I hope your pain is now gone, and you can rest happily.

For those who have been affected by a loves one's suicide, I'm sorry for your lose. Please remember they loved you, but they just needed to get away from the pain.

Monday, October 25th 2004 - 04:43:11 PM

 

In Memory of:: Lee Cutter

Wednesday, October 20th 2004 - 05:43:04 AM

 

In Memory of:: Wess Tibet
Your Name: Seamus (Jim) Connor
Relationship: Best friends
Memoriam: Wess, I remember the last time I saw you at that hospital. I miss the times we hung out in the 70s!
I looked up to you- did you know that? I thought you were the coolest person in the world!

Thursday, October 14th 2004 - 10:04:28 AM

 

In Memory of:: Dr. David Tapley
Your Name: Laura
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: Daddy I miss you sooo MUCH. How could you have done this? You have missed alot in my life already. I am finally starting to remeber the good memories that we had. I know that you loved me but it is getting really hard to believe that. I wish you were still here, but that is not possible.

Saturday, October 9th 2004 - 01:48:05 PM

 

In Memory of:: my mom and my sister
Your Name: just me
Relationship: the one you left behind
Memoriam: I miss you both so much.
I love you.

Thursday, October 7th 2004 - 06:01:49 PM

 

In Memory of:: ben
Your Name: ross
Relationship: brother
Memoriam: there is so much i want to tell you ben. i miss you dearly, not only for your sense of humor, your personality, your geniusness but also for your companionship. i know you were going through a brutal and difficult time, but i just wish that i could have been there for you more often than i was. i pray that you have found what you were looking for, and i look forward to the day that we shall meet again. thank you for the experiences we haved shared. love rosso

Wednesday, September 29th 2004 - 11:54:58 PM

 

In Memory of:: Debra T."DEE" Mincey
Your Name: John M. Morgan
Relationship: former wife
Memoriam: In memory of a beautiful woman only 44 years old who fought bipolar for over 7 years as strong as she possibly could but finally lost her battle on November 23rd, 2003 by suicide.
You will be loved and remembered forever "DEE"
I Love You!
Michael

Monday, September 27th 2004 - 07:43:00 PM

 

In Memory of:: Richard
Your Name: Gabriele and Brandon
Relationship: Ex wife and son
Memoriam: Richard,if you only could know how much you hurt your son and me by doing what you did.I saved you the first time and never thought you ever try again.You found out life wasent greener on the other side.Even what you had put me through..I will always LOVE you.In a way we were soulmates!Your son misses you like crazy.If you only had called me and talked to me.I was always there with and for you.I love you.I hope you found Peace.Love gaby and Brandon.

Sunday, September 26th 2004 - 04:17:45 PM

 

In Memory of:: Patricia Cunningham
Your Name: Chaya
Relationship: grandmother
Memoriam: I was 8 years old when you passed, and I couldn't understand why you would want to never see me again. It would be 4 more years for them to see that I was a lot like you. I wish you were with me as I faced the demons that we share, that you passed to me with your bloodline. I could have used an ally, someone who understood the pain, a pain so great that you left this world. I will see you someday, and we will have plenty to talk about, and I know you will be there.

All of my love,
Your Granddaughter

Saturday, September 25th 2004 - 09:32:09 PM

 

In Memory of:: Carol
Your Name: Cheryl
Relationship: Twin Sister
Memoriam: You will always be in my heart as you are a part of me. I wish only we could have found another solution. I know you are at peace now. I will try to be forgiving and understand the choice you made. I just wish we could go back...when we were little and begin again...I love you so much. Always, B Baby

Thursday, September 23rd 2004 - 02:34:19 PM

 

In Memory of:: Adrian Rubio
Your Name: AL
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: its almost 6 years since uve been gone , i miss you and wish u were here to hang like we use to. i hope you have found your peace of heaven. i love u and miss u! R.I.P.

Friday, September 17th 2004 - 11:15:43 PM

 

In Memory of:: King Fleming
Your Name: Saundra Fleming
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: thanks Daddy for always inspiring me through comedy and
your playful love of life. You are so much a part of my own sensibility as an artist, and of your grandchildren's,
Morgan's and Egan's sense of humor and their own love of life.

Tuesday, September 14th 2004 - 09:36:49 AM

 

In Memory of:: Lori Brady Foster
Your Name: mdk
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: I hope that you are at peace now. I still love you and hold you very dearly in my heart and always will.

Monday, September 13th 2004 - 01:08:23 PM

 

In Memory of:: Scott A. Darga
Your Name: Jodi Perelgut
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: My brother took his own life on April 18,2004. I miss him more than I ever thought possible. He will forever remain in my heart!!! I love you & miss you very much!!

Wednesday, September 8th 2004 - 08:46:07 PM

 

In Memory of:: James K
Your Name: C.A.
Memoriam: We never met, but when I got the 911 call that day, it tore my heart out. It was the first time I'd handled a suicide call at work, but not the first in my life. I lost someone I loved to it when I was only 16. I never fully recovered from that loss.
You were so young and as it turns out, you lived right around the corner from me, and yet I never knew you. I wish now that I had been given the chance to know you and to share with you all that I have learned in my own struggle with the beast that is Bipolar disorder. I don't know if it could've helped, but I wish I'd been able to try.
My prayers are with your family now, as they struggle find some sense of happiness again. I know that you are in a better place where you'll never have to hurt again. I pray that those who love you will soon find some peace of their own.

Monday, September 6th 2004 - 10:46:50 PM

 

In Memory of:: April Banks
Your Name: Stephanie
Relationship: step-sister

Monday, September 6th 2004 - 04:25:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: Elise
Your Name: Pugsley-
Relationship: Online friend
Memoriam: I guess I will never understand your true pain that made you decide to leave this world. I hope you are free now. We all miss you from the Bipolarworld Room.

Saturday, September 4th 2004 - 06:56:22 PM

 

In Memory of:: Patrice "PC"
Your Name: ShawnT
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: I miss you and think about you every day PC. I wish that I knew then what I know now. Things may not have ended differently but I would have been able to have been a lot more dependable and supportive. My life has been forever changed for having you in it. You were so much fun and so much love. Thank you for sharing you with me. I love you always.

Thursday, September 2nd 2004 - 04:41:55 PM

 

In Memory of:: William O. Decker
Your Name: Heather L. Hawthorne
Relationship: Grand-Father 'popi'
Memoriam: I hope you see the accomplishments of your grand-children from where you are...
I love you and think of you everyday

Wednesday, August 25th 2004 - 06:39:42 PM

 

In Memory of:: Nathan Ferrian
Your Name: Kelly Harris
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: 10-4-81 to 5-4-99. This is for his friends and family so he is never forgotten.

Wednesday, August 25th 2004 - 12:18:14 AM

 

In Memory of:: Travis Charles McCuddy
Your Name: April McCuddy
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: Travis died of suicide on May 2, 2004 at age 24. We have three children ages 2,4,and 6. Thank you for our babies. We miss you more than you could ever imagine. Everyday I walk around with an emptiness beyond understanding. I am blamed for his death daily by his family. It is so hard to be left behind. The babies keep me strong. We love you Trav.

Friday, August 20th 2004 - 10:28:54 AM

 

In Memory of:: JEREMY DRAKE HEHN
Your Name: JOANNE HEHN
Relationship: MOTHER
Memoriam: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I MISS YOU. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, August 17th 2004 - 08:27:58 PM

 

In Memory of:: Raymond Burke
Your Name: Shannon M. Nault. Leyden
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: DEAR RAY,

NOT SURE WHY YOU WENT AWAY, AT TIMES I CAN FEEL YOUR PAIN. SADLY MISSED BY FAMILY AND FRIENDS~
~THE BURKE AND NAULT FAMILY~

Monday, August 16th 2004 - 10:14:00 AM

 

In Memory of:: Derek Anthony Grubbs
Your Name: anon.
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: Dear Derek, (June 16, 1986- May 26th, 2004)

You are missed terribly by everyone in this small community. You are loved, and you will ALWAYS be remembered. We all hope that you didn't feel anything those last seconds on earth before the train took your life. There are so many "why's" and "If only's". But the alcohol, the drugs, the driving. It was all a bad concoction. You were suffering. But you are in a better place now. Far away from the misery this tiny town suffers so greatly. 2 more lives have been lost the way you lost yours. Another one from your town, too. Although the town is suffering, you suffered greater pains.
We'll see you again soon.

Thursday, August 12th 2004 - 08:39:15 PM

 

In Memory of:: Michael
Your Name: Stacey
Relationship: Spouse
Memoriam: I miss you. It's going on four years now and every day is just as hard as it was the first one, when you left me. Everyone thinks I should be over you and move on but I can't, I cry myself to sleep every night because I want to be with you. Noone understands how it hurts with you gone. I still can see you hanging there lifeless like I found you. I can't seem to shake that vision even after all this time. I pray that you will come back and take me with you but you never come. I miss you and will always love you.
And I will always be your wife.

Thursday, August 12th 2004 - 01:20:19 PM

 

In Memory of:: David Brewer
Your Name: Ginger French
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: This talented, gentle, creative, and compassionate young man will be missed not only by those of us who loved him, but, unbeknownst to them, by the many lives he would have continued to touch had he lived longer. May he rest in God's gentle loving arms, and may we continue to love him by cherishing our memories of him. David, you were precious to us and so greatly loved!

Tuesday, August 10th 2004 - 07:34:55 PM

 

In Memory of:: Patrick
Your Name: Heather
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: I miss you so much. I think of you everyday, first thing as soon as I wake up & last thing before I go to sleep. These eight years have been very lonely. You were like my brother. I would give anything for you to be here right now. I love you & miss you. Hopefully you found what you were looking for. I'll see you later.

Tuesday, August 10th 2004 - 02:59:29 PM

 

In Memory of:: Frank Noah Haley
Your Name: Amanda Chase Haley
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: Noah was my 22 year old baby brother who took his life on August 2, 2004. He battled with bipolar and manic depression for years and finally gave up hope. Noah was a bright and happy person as a young boy and had a heart that was on fire for Jesus towards the end of his life. He will be greatly missed! I know he's playing drums in heaven with Jesus and catching lots of fish. I'll never understand why, but I'll always think fondly of you Noah and remember the good times we had growing up together. Your Big sister, Mandi

Tuesday, August 10th 2004 - 11:36:17 AM

 

In Memory of:: Eddie Baksinski
Your Name: Karen K
Relationship: stepfather
Memoriam: He was my best friend. He raised me since I was five. I am 26 now. This month it will be eleven years ago that he took his life. Now, he has been gone longer than I knew him. I love you Eddie.

Monday, August 9th 2004 - 11:16:16 AM

 

In Memory of:: joyce hunsaker
Your Name: amanda sydik
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: laughed allthe time always had a joke you were a great person always helped those in need hope that you finaly have pease from youor pain whatever it may have been i love and miss you much

Friday, August 6th 2004 - 01:02:16 AM

 

In Memory of:: Michael Robert Gray
Your Name: Barbie Gray
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: I love and miss you so much Mikey. You suffered so long and tried so hard to beat your depression. You accomplished so much though in your short life, and I am forever grateful that you went to Europe and fulfilled one of your dreams, and also, that we met in Italy (your idea!)

Watch over me always, my son. Rest in peace, and God Bless you, and keep you in his Presence.

Love alway and forever,

Mom
00xx


Michael Gray 11-15-82/07-11-04

Thursday, August 5th 2004 - 08:34:48 AM

 

In Memory of:: Enrique
Your Name: ale
Relationship: uncle
Memoriam: i don´t know the reason of your suicide, but i hope that you are happy now, and i want you to know that everybody miss you!

Friday, July 30th 2004 - 07:52:02 PM

 

In Memory of:: jason &ryan
Your Name: tee2krzy
Relationship: friends
Memoriam: two good friends that will always be in my heart

Thursday, July 29th 2004 - 02:57:11 AM

 

In Memory of:: Dustin Welch
Your Name: Tami Jarrett
Relationship: soulmate
Memoriam: It's been six months and I still have no answers: was it an accident? Or did you know what you were doing, mixing your meds with the alcohol?
Seven years together, seven years apart...and then we found each other again, and we both knew why our relationship had been heaven and hell- we shared a diagnosis of bp. So much was suddenly so clear.
And after everything, of course I forgave you. I never stopped loving you. I just wish we hadn't been so afraid to say "I love you" again; we were so close, and then...you were gone.
I wanted so much to see your wicked pirate's grin again. Our last conversations will echo in my head until, one day, we're together once more.
You told me you thought you'd found your soulmate. I think we both had: death can't change that.
If I didn't have my son- truly a more precious gift than despair- I'd be with you already.
But wait for me. And if you promise to have the absinthe ready, I'll bring the black eyeliner...

"without you/without you everything falls apart/
without you/it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces..."
-'The Perfect Drug', NIN

Monday, July 26th 2004 - 07:25:16 PM

 

In Memory of:: Ronald Lieberman
Your Name: Lora (Lieberman) Cruz
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: Though I didn't know you well, I too suffer from those thoughts. I want to show that you are remembered...you are not forgotten, Ronnie. G-d bless you and I hope that you have found peace in His arms.

Thursday, July 22nd 2004 - 07:14:02 PM

 

In Memory of:: Uncle Tommy
Your Name: Sarah
Relationship: him-uncle, me-neice
Memoriam: I know I have never met you, Uncle Tommy, but I am so sorry that you went through what you did and I understand. I know you weren't diagnosed with anything but I am bipolar and at times I feel like I can't go on either. You're family forgives you and Grandma, I know, loves you. She wishes you would have hung in there. She knew you would have came out of it. She told me so when i asked about you. You are never talked about amongst the family, but I know that everyone loves you.
I wish we could have met, Uncle Tommy. I could have used someone who understands to talk to. Until we meet for real, you are in my thoughts.

Thursday, July 15th 2004 - 08:11:24 PM

 

In Memory of:: Melinda
Relationship: dad
Memoriam: My only hope is that you have finally found what you could never seem to find on this Earth.
Spread your wings now and fly. You are finally free.
I will love you and miss you forever until we meet again.

Wednesday, July 14th 2004 - 12:12:04 PM

 

In Memory of:: Julian Forrest Boyer
Your Name: Angi Steele
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: I spent so many years upset with you because you took your life and left me all alone. I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar and tried to take my own life. I now see how easy it can be to make that decision. How hard it is to live like this. I just pray every day that it will get better. I love you Daddy!

Friday, July 9th 2004 - 08:34:52 PM

 

In Memory of:: Elaine
Your Name: Lauren
Relationship: My Mom
Memoriam: It's been over a year now but it still feels like it happened yesterday. I'm so sorry I let you down. It haunts me every day. You were my rock, my compass, my best friend. I'm lost without you.

Sunday, July 4th 2004 - 06:39:15 PM

 

In Memory of:: Elaine
Your Name: Lauren
Relationship: My Mom
Memoriam: It's been over a year now but it still feels like it happened yesterday. I'm so sorry I let you down. It haunts me every day. You were my rock, my compass, my best friend. I'm lost without you.

Sunday, July 4th 2004 - 06:38:55 PM

 

In Memory of:: Craig Eric Smith
Your Name: Joy Styles
Relationship: Love of My Life
Memoriam: A bright light extinguished far too quickly and too soon. His smile,humor,gentleness and kindness made my world a better place. I will miss him for the rest of my life. I miss you Monkey!

Tuesday, June 22nd 2004 - 09:18:31 AM

 

In Memory of:: John Thomas Jefferson
Your Name: Kathryn Ann Jefferson
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: You are always near in my heart, as you are only a thought away...how i miss you and your smile...may you be in God's hands, that one day we shall see each other and smile again....I Love You Always....sis

Thursday, May 27th 2004 - 11:48:15 PM

 

In Memory of:: Kevin P. Coffey
Your Name: Karen J. Sherman
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: This is in memory of my "little" brother and only family that I had left. Kevin P. Coffey, 6/10/59 - 12/18/00.

I lost my Dad in 1997 and am thankful that Dad was not around when Kevin took his life. He would not have survived it. This is the most difficult period in my life and my life will never be the same. I miss him so much and blame myself for his death.

Kevin also left behind his wife Shirl, daughters Donielle, Kyla, son Greg, granddaughter Lacey. Kevin,you would be so proud of Greg, he turned into such a nice young man. He is getting married and his fiancee Maggie is pregnant, your grandchild is due in July. In my heart, I know that you know this. I love you very much and miss you more than you will ever know. Your loving sister, Karen Sherman

 

Wednesday, May 26th 2004 - 11:59:07 AM

 

In Memory of:: Grandpa C
Your Name: Little C
Relationship: grandfather
Memoriam: Grandpa, though I never met you, I feel your pain. I know what it's like to be bipolar. I know what it's like to have no way out other than death. I'm sorry your illness was that bad. I'm sorry that I never got to meet you. But I understand, and I don't hold it against you. I love you.

Monday, May 24th 2004 - 10:55:36 AM

 

In Memory of:: Corinna Biehl
Your Name: Kevin Biehl
Relationship: Spouse
Memoriam: I know that you did what you felt to had to do. I will not hold this againist you. Corinna you didn't take your life your illness is what killed you. I will always LOVE YOU. Our God is a loving, caring, and kind God. He knows that with your illness that it wasn't you. I will see you in heaven. Love You

Saturday, May 22nd 2004 - 06:47:52 AM

 

In Memory of:: porter shamberger
Your Name: liz hinkle
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: i love your blue hair that always made me smile

Thursday, May 20th 2004 - 01:36:34 PM

 

In Memory of:: Candice Doucette
Your Name: Lindsey
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: Candice u were so talented in everyway!!I miss hearing u sing and talking to u!!I wish we would of spent more time together.You'll be in my heart forever I'll never forget u and the times we spent together!!It makes me sad to think that the last time I talked to u and saw u was Christmas 2002!!The last words I ever said to u were good bye I love u see u soon!!I still remember the day we got the news that u died I had felt weird all day and when my mom came home from work I felt worse she came to the door crying I thought someone eltes died like my great grandmother I had no idea it was Candice!!My uncle had called a minute before my mom came to the door so I gave her the phone and when I heard those words come out of her mouth that Candice died I said that it can't be she was only 18!!My mom and dad went to see my aunt and I said home with my older brother!!That night right when i turned on the tv american idol was on and it reminded me of candice she loved to sing!!That night I cried more then I ever had before I wanted it all to just be a dream and for me to wake up but it wasn't a dream!!I cried untell I just fell a sleep!!Its been a little over a year sents Candice died but I still remember it like it was yesterday!!I hope she knows how much i love her and miss her!!She's in a better place now she is happy where she is and now my family has a guardian angel to watch over us!!Rest In Peace Candice I Love You!!!(The night she died I knew she didn't get in a car accident she died of drugs)

Saturday, May 15th 2004 - 08:26:25 AM

 

In Memory of:: Frank Kendall
Your Name: Lori Stewart
Relationship: Soulmate
Memoriam: A great father, friend and soulmate. A man who loved life. But could never get away from the past. Thank you Frank for the best times of my life. You are forgiven and loved forever!!

Wednesday, May 12th 2004 - 07:28:48 PM

 

In Memory of:: manuel
Your Name: heather
Relationship: boyfriend
Memoriam: i love manuel so much, and when i move im so afraid he's going to hurt himself or do something extremly bad. im hoping i can control my self from self harm, and stay in control of my emotions.some times we do things withot looking all the way through to the other side, im going to try and talk to manuel every day, i love him so much, i just want to go off somewhere with him and nothing bad would ever happen to us.

to my one and only love, manuel

Tuesday, May 11th 2004 - 11:21:45 AM

 

In Memory of:: Gerald Dean Cox II "Bird"
Your Name: Erin R. Reid
Relationship: boyfriend's dad
Memoriam: I was very close to "Bird" and it was a sudden shock when i got that one phone call saying that he was gone. As soon as i heard all i wanted to do was run away-- and i didnt know where to go. So i went outside to my horse and just sat there and held her. I then came back into the house and told my mother that i was going to find my boyfriend but it took me forever to find him but when i did, all i wanted to do was cry. So i quess all that im saying is watch for the signs and always remember to let those free birds fly.

Sunday, May 9th 2004 - 02:11:42 PM

 

In Memory of:: Candice Doucette
Your Name: Casey La Rochelle
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Candice we all know you were hurting, and time with your friends was your only escape. Its a living hell knowing that I couldnt help you on that morning when your life ended. I wasnt there candice, although I should have been, I left only hours earlier. I can picture the sight in my mind even though I didnt see you; I'm not sure why. Why drugs Candice?? Why did you have to let yourself go like that?? We know you were hurting, but now we are hurting too... we could have helped eachother... we always did. But now I am left to help myself, and I will probably meet you soon in heaven, Where we will both fly free. I love you, I miss you... But I dont blame you... Heaven is a much more beautiful place than here, you have gotten your wings now Candice, and now we will all hear you sing.

Thursday, May 6th 2004 - 08:35:58 AM

 

In Memory of:: Dan Rockwood
Your Name: Danyelle
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: he killed himself and i miss him so much he was the greatist person ever!

Wednesday, April 28th 2004 - 07:52:07 AM

 

In Memory of:: mona jesse
Your Name: angela
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: So sorry I didn't understand your pain. I never understood the challenges you faced. You must have been so frightened the day you took your own life and jesse's. I dream of you sometimes, I dream of the missed opportunity to help you. I hope you are happy and at peace. I hope you are surrounded by others who love and understand you. I hope you finally feel welcomed and overwhelmingly loved.

Sunday, April 25th 2004 - 11:32:59 PM

 

In Memory of:: Stephen Michael Klaass
Your Name: L. M. Klaass
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: A Brother Lost

You can’t see his angelic face when he was only two.
Or see courage when an eighty-foot tree broke, and he flew!
Or know his bravery as he fought the demons from age five.
For if you knew him as I did, you’d too wish he were alive.

You can’t see his unwavering faith and his love for God.
Or see the sacrifice he’d made for friends on paths he trod.
No, you’ll never know his charity he had for humankind.
A kinder person on this earth, I think you’ll never find.

You can’t see the white hair he had earned by age thirty-four.
And still he persevered; even helped those who had more!
Or admire the compassion he carried with him everyday.
Or understand the love ALL had for him…but he couldn’t stay.

And when he went, he broke more hearts than have been counted yet.
But in his life, he filled our hearts, we cannot soon forget.
If I could destroy this illness beast, I’d use all of my power.
But all I have to offer is, my love for him each hour.


~In Memory of Stephen Michael Klaass 1968-2003
By: L. M. Klaass September 23, 2003
 

Wednesday, April 21st 2004 - 02:30:19 PM

 

In Memory of:: Shonna Page
Your Name: Terri
Relationship: Mother

Tuesday, April 13th 2004 - 11:18:37 AM

 

In Memory of:: Christopher Paul Hale
Your Name: Sherry Smith
Relationship: Fiance/best friend
Memoriam: On April 3,2004 My fiance & and best friend in the whole world passed away, he took his own life. He was suffering with Bi-polar and manic depression and he is only 20 years old. I ask for all of you who read this to please pray for him, that he is finally at peace within himself , Thank You to everyone who actually takes the time to read this and thank u for your prayers.... CHRISTOPHER PAUL HALE November 14 1983- April 3, 2004
butterflynluv420@hotmail.com

Sunday, April 11th 2004 - 10:40:21 PM

 

In Memory of:: Keith Simes Key, Key
Your Name: Rhonda Heskin
Relationship: First Cousin / Was Like My Brother
Memoriam: Keith as I type this the tears are rolling down my face. I can't believe it has been almost 9 years since your death. There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of you. I beleive you probably were also Bi- Polar, as I have finally been diagnosed as last year and I have found it it runs in our family. I wish that you did not have to feel the pain and the living hell you must have felt to take your own precious life. I know how that hell feels I felt it after you died and wanted to end my own life as well. The only reason I am still here today is because I got pregnant and I truly beleived that God gave you another chance on earth and that a part of you was with this new wonderful baby growing inside of me. I know it sounds strange. lol . But we always promised we would take care of eachother. The guilt I felt and the hurt that you never told me how much pain you were realy in killed me inside. I was numb for almost a year. I wish more then anything in the world to see you. Your sweet face, the sparkle in your eyes, your beautiful smile and to here your laugh again. You were such a smart, sensitive, funny, good looking guy with so many friends and family that loved you dearly. The girls were all crazy about you. So young 19 you had the whole world in front of you and everyone you ever met you touched them in some way. Always there to listen to everyones problems. It just breaks my heart that you felt that much pain and sorrow and that was the only way out you could see out. You were the brother I never had, we grew up together, partied together, shared evrything we ever felt and I just can't believe you never called me that day. That horrible day I will never forget, when you took your own life. I believe and have faith you are at peace now in heaven with God and I have still not completley accepted that I will never see you again until that day I enter heaven. No words can describe the feelings of loss, sorrow, and pain that so many people felt when we all lost you that day. If only you would have been able to reach out for help directly or only if we could of read the signs and recognized that you were reaching out for help, and we knew the signs of suicide. I honestly can say I don't think I will ever completley accept that you are no longer here with us physicaly, but I know you are watching over us from heaven with my mom. We are all just devestated that you didn't get the help you needed and that this could of been prevented if we were all better educated at the time. But it is time for me to let let go. I have 2 Beautiful girls now, Tyra is going to be 8 right away and Drew is 18 months old. I met a wonderful guy Darius who I have been with for 6 years now and I know you would be proud of me. I wish they could of met you but they all know you through me. You will never be forgotten here on earth and I am greatful for all the years and wonderful memories we did get to have together. Love Forever and in my heart always
Your cous/sis Rhonda Wa,Wa

Tuesday, April 6th 2004 - 02:52:15 AM

 

In Memory of:: Bobby
Your Name: Carol
Relationship: Sister in Law
Memoriam: It's hard to believe it's been almost 14 years since you ended your life. Your little girls have both grown up and started their adult lives already. We all miss you so much. People always say the pain goes away in time but they're wrong. It gets easier to live with but it never leaves you. There hasn't been a single day that I haven't thought of you and wished to God that you'd gotten help and stayed here with us. I don't think you ever realized how much I loved you but I did. You were like a big brother to me and when I heard you were gone it was like someone had ripped out a piece of my soul. You will always be with me in my heart. As I've dealt with my own battles with bipolar, the pain that your death caused us all has been one thing that prevented me from taking that very final step. I'm 30 now, only a year away from where you were when you went on to the next life. You seemed so old to me back then. It's funny how life changes. I know you're at peace now and I'm thankful for that. You will be forever missed.

Love Forever,
Carol

Thursday, April 1st 2004 - 09:32:32 PM

 

In Memory of:: Melissa Vilot
Your Name: Shelly
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: On April 8 - 2003, I heard of the dreadful news. Your dad called to tell me that you had jumped out of your 4th story window. I was devastated for along time because when your pain ended mine began. I know that you have found final peace. May god rest your weary soul. I will forever miss you and wish i could hug you one more time. I am sorry for the pain you carried and could not relieve. May you keep watch over your godson from heaven, he still needs you and keeps you close in his heart. Forever i will cherish the many, wonderful, memories i have of you. If only you knew how much you were loved....

Wednesday, March 31st 2004 - 06:17:58 PM

 

In Memory of:: Brian K Clark
Your Name: Angella
Relationship: Big sister
Memoriam: The Logical song, snow? and smoking. Playing dinosaurs with Jimmy. Philisophical, big hugs, tormented. all these words remind me of you little bro'
Brian K. Clark 10/21/69 to 12/19/94 all my love

Tuesday, March 30th 2004 - 06:13:42 AM

 

In Memory of:: Jeremiah Tucker Gregor
Your Name: Leslie
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Christine told me you were gone and all's I could do was wonder why we did all those AA and NA Drug Court Papers. My world is still in chaos, you aren't here to help me move, you aren't here to help your dad make five pound burgers and take pictures and everytime I hear a cell phone jingle I remember all the girlfriends you said you had. The gaurdrail by the side of the freeway where you went over still has a cross with "Miah" written on it, but I can't drive by without crying, I am not the one who could even think about lecturing you but I did read your Drug Court Speech we wrote together and last but not least, I got the message from Glenna. I don't see her anymore, but when she told me, you gave me relief and I don't fear death anymore.
I had Bi-Polar, Jeremiah had an alcohol Bi-polar disfunctional family upbringing and he got drunk New Years Eve, 2002, and got into his truck 10 minutes after midnight and drove 90 miles an hour to his grave. They all say it was an accident, but he and I shared a bond and now I know what it was, its too late, but I know. Mom miss's you very much as we all do, and your son, Little J, is sooooo smart, thank you for helping me through my attempt you saved my life. I love you JBird very much and I miss you even more.

Im glad your ok on the other side and I will see you one day. LC

Wednesday, March 17th 2004 - 10:34:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: JAY
Your Name: Helen
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: Jay you are at peace now my darling son. Fly high. Fly Free. Forever Young. Love and miss you so very much.

Monday, March 15th 2004 - 01:47:43 PM

 

In Memory of:: Ralph William Day
Your Name: Genevieve Baker
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: It has been 14 years since that fateful day, you were tired of life, the fight was too hard, the pain too deep, so you left.When it happened,we had just started to write one another and through the letters we began a friendship, Father and Daughter just beginning to learn about one another. It was more than a shock when I found out, it shattered me, I kept asking myself why didnt he say something but, I know how the "beast" operates, it isolates people, secludes them from seeking the help they so desperately need. I was angry for awhile until I found out first hand how the "beast" takes control and now I understand, Daddy I hope you hear this, I love you and one day I will see you in another world, in God's world, where there is no pain. Love, Genevieve

Thursday, March 4th 2004 - 10:42:43 PM

 

In Memory of:: Mike Sullivan
Your Name: Jessica
Relationship: Boyfriend
Memoriam: Mike at a tender age of 22 took his own life on 03/04/04. He didn't believe in medication for his bipolar, add, impulstivity and depression. Had he shared his pain and only exhibited his happy, loving self,I may have helped. Do I blame myself, of course. He was the most beautiful person I have ever and will ever known. May he be at peace with his mom above.

Thursday, March 4th 2004 - 07:51:17 PM

 

In Memory of:: Jonathan Rickard
Your Name: Terry Rickard
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Give me a look, Give me a face,
That makes simplicity a grace,
Robes loosely flowing, hair as free,
Such sweet neglect more taketh me,
Than all the adulteries of art,
That strike mine eyes but not my heart.
(Ben Jonson)

Sunday, February 29th 2004 - 10:56:06 PM

 

In Memory of:: April
Your Name: Jules
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: It was so long ago and yet like yesterday. It was so abrubt, pieces gone forever, so very impossible and unreal. It wasn't easy then was it? I came very close to seeing you again this year, but it's just not the right choice for me. I know that now. Your memory stays with me and in it we are still laughing. Your smile is as bright as ever. Peace be with you my friend.

Sunday, February 29th 2004 - 01:26:08 PM

 

In Memory of:: Tim
Your Name: Lisa
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: In the short time you were in my life, you taught me so much. You taught me that everyone has a lesson to share and I just need to listen. You tried to teach me that you were in a lot of pain. I didn't pay attention to my studies. I didn't listen. I am sorry. I listen to others much more intently now.

Friday, February 27th 2004 - 02:37:40 PM

 

In Memory of:: all of those lost
Your Name: jen
Relationship: someone who has been there
Memoriam: After reading over all of the goodbyes, it has forced me to really think about what I have tried to do to myself in the past. thank almighty God that I was not successful. I am so thankful to him that my children, family and friends will never have to grieve over the greatest mistake i could have made..

God Bless all of you.

Thursday, February 26th 2004 - 09:01:22 AM

 

In Memory of:: William Hosfelt
Your Name: Mandy
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: I love you and miss you! Thank you for all the good times.
I know we will meet again. You are always with me!

Tuesday, February 24th 2004 - 04:09:35 PM

 

In Memory of:: William (Billy) Hosfelt
Your Name: Mandy
Relationship: Friend

Tuesday, February 24th 2004 - 04:04:13 PM

 

In Memory of:: Kurt Cobain
Your Name: Samantha
Relationship: A remarkable, talented person
Memoriam: You are so amazing and talented. I will hold you in my heart till I die.
Blessed be

Monday, February 9th 2004 - 10:59:25 AM

 

In Memory of:: Darlene L Maas
Your Name: Mary
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: I will always love you !!!

Wednesday, February 4th 2004 - 12:03:56 AM

 

In Memory of:: Russel P Maas
Your Name: mary
Relationship: my father
Memoriam: I will always love you dad

Tuesday, February 3rd 2004 - 11:57:40 PM

 

In Memory of:: Sarah Meddin
Your Name: Rachel Meddin
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: Sarah it is so hard to know how to begin. It is seven months since your death and I miss you more then ever. I know you were brave for so long and endured so much that you felt you couldn't take anymore. I wish I could hold you again and I miss all the fun we used to have. I go to tell you important and trivial things all the time and I hope you can hear them. I dream of you every night and pray that you are at peace and with all the love you need. People say it is not anyone's fault but I know I should have helped and been there more then I was. I can hear you telling me that this is not how or why you made your decision. I can't accept that you died alone and that my children will only know your memory. I still doing things and more determined then ever to lead my life but there is a space inside me and I will wait until we meet again. Love, Jar Jar

Saturday, January 31st 2004 - 05:14:48 AM

 

In Memory of:: Peter
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Peter, I miss you so much. You're my hero.

Sunday, January 25th 2004 - 06:32:36 PM

 

In Memory of:: Ron Thoreson
Your Name: Megan
Relationship: Niece
Memoriam: I see your face, and it is so peaceful, yet I hear your cries and they are so loud!! I am sorry that I never heard them, now I hear them all the time. I have just been diagnosed as Bi-Polar and I know that there are people there to help, Ron I wish that you knew that. I know you saved me, along with everyone else up there last Friday and I thank you...I hope that no one dies alone there are always people there to help.

Thursday, January 22nd 2004 - 03:24:48 PM

 

In Memory of:: WILLIAM A HOSFELT III
Your Name: MARIAN
Relationship: MOTHER
Memoriam: WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND CAN ONLY WAIT FOR THE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN. I PRAY YOU ARE NOW AT PEACE AND WITH GOD.

Monday, January 19th 2004 - 06:36:06 AM

 

In Memory of:: Harold Jr
Your Name: Trish
Relationship: Widow
Memoriam: I know you had to go, but I still miss you so. Our kids are grown and have children of their own now. Every time I see them I wish you could stand beside me, delighting in the family we built together. Many times I feel your presence, but what I wouldn't give to see your beautiful face! The only man I have ever known who loved children as much as I do... rest easy, my love!

Tuesday, January 13th 2004 - 05:58:12 PM

 

In Memory of:: Mary Evelyn Napier
Your Name: LM
Relationship: granddaughter

Friday, December 12th 2003 - 07:33:52 PM

 

In Memory of:: Miss Jan Beck
Your Name: Temple
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: I wish I was a better friend. I wish I wasn't so selfish with my time and family. I never doubted you when you told me you were going to kill yourself, but now that you have done it, and it is almost a year since that day.. I suffer EACH day on some way because of this. I love you and appreciate all you did for me and your genuine friendship/mentorship. I miss you more than I can express and I hope you are free now. She put a gun in her mouth on Dec. 19, 2002 and pulled the trigger. I will always feel I should have/could have done more.
Xo Love and friends.. Temple

Tuesday, December 9th 2003 - 08:40:45 PM

 

In Memory of:: Don Rees
Your Name: Vanessa
Relationship: Mate
Memoriam: Don, I miss you so very much. In two weeks it will have been one year since you took your own life. I still feel the worst overwhelming guilt for leaving you that morning, when I had a bad feeling. I will never forget driving up to our house after picking up my children and seeing swarms of police cars. That memory haunts me. I loved you and love you still. It is hard for me to move on. Smiling makes me feel guilty some of the time. You would have been okay. We would have been okay. What you did was so final, there was no turning back. Gunshot to the heart. You don't get much more final than that. I am so sorry that you felt you had to do this and that I couldn't help you. I will always be in your family's life, trying to do my best for them, for me and for my chidldren. I love you.

Tuesday, December 9th 2003 - 10:13:52 PM

 

In Memory of:: Ed
Your Name: Lisa
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Ed, we didn't see each other alot but I wanted to say that I miss you. I've been down in the pit of dispare too but you showed me what the people left behind feel like. I will always be your friend. Please help me hang on. Lisa

Tuesday, December 9th 2003 - 08:40:45 PM

 

In Memory of:: Maggie Bednarz
Your Name: Robin
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: Mom, I just think I'm getting better and the grief comes back. I remember the times you loved me and want them back. I remember the times you hated me and wish they had never existed. Our relationship was so confusing, but your death is the most confusing. How can I miss you so much so painfully after almost a year? I feel so alone and adrift. I miss you mom. I love you.

Friday, December 5th 2003 - 12:10:44 AM

 

In Memory of:: AW Lunceford
Your Name: Patsy Busick
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: Sonshine, If only I had known, if only I had realized, if I had only known then what I know now. I would do anything, give anything to have you here with me. They say the pain will fade with the passing of time and in our hearts we will keep forever the memories of the time we shared together. I know you are now at peace and in a much better place. And for that, I am grateful. I think of you every minute, every hour, every day. I love you more than words can express. Thank God you blessed us with Tyler, because through him, you continue to live. I love you, Sonshine. Mom

Thursday, November 27th 2003 - 08:23:20 PM

 

In Memory of:: Dustin Hogekins
Your Name: Ashley Jenkins
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: Hope he has a better life than he thought he ever did,
I love you and I'll miss you... always and forever!

Thursday, November 20th 2003 - 08:11:09 PM

 

In Memory of:: Christopher Marino
Your Name: Noelle
Relationship: Friend

Sunday, November 9th 2003 - 10:47:14 AM

 

In Memory of:: Maggie Bednarz
Your Name: Robin
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: Mom, I just think I'm getting better and the grief comes back. I remember the times you loved me and want them back. I remember the times you hated me and wish they had never existed. Our relationship was so confusing, but your death is the most confusing. How can I miss you so much so painfully after almost a year? I feel so alone and adrift. I miss you mom. I love you.

Friday, November 7th 2003 - 03:03:49 PM

 

In Memory of:: AW Lunceford
Your Name: Patsy Busick
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: Sonshine, If only I had known, if only I had realized, if I had only known then what I know now. I would do anything, give anything to have you here with me. They say the pain will fade with the passing of time and in our hearts we will keep forever the memories of the time we shared together. I know you are now at peace and in a much better place. And for that, I am grateful. I think of you every minute, every hour, every day. I love you more than words can express. Thank God you blessed us with Tyler, because through him, you continue to live. I love you, Sonshine. Mom

Wednesday, November 5th 2003 - 08:25:39 AM

 

In Memory of:: Dustin Hogekins
Your Name: Ashley Jenkins
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: Hope he has a better life than he thought he ever did,
I love you and I'll miss you... always and forever!

Monday, November 3rd 2003 - 12:03:12 AM

 

In Memory of:: Christopher Marino
Your Name: Noelle
Relationship: Friend

Monday, October 27th 2003 - 11:34:13 PM

 

In Memory of:: Christopher Marino
Your Name: Noelle
Relationship: Friend

Thursday, October 23rd 2003 - 02:22:14 PM

 

In Memory of:: Adam Fulkerson
Your Name: Kaylene
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Adam, What can I say, what does it matter anyway? I wonder if you can see me ache, I wonder if you care? I can see your eyes, sparkling cornflower blue. I can feel your heart beat in rhythm with mine, I can hear your soft breathing, but you are not here anymore. You never said goodbye, and you left me for her. What did she do to you? I can't help but blame her... were you trying to punish her? Did you think that you would be able to look back and see her cry? She is too busy worrying about your computer that Larry has. You had it all wrong, the ones you pushed away were the ones who cherished your precious heart. I seek you out in every blond haired boy that I pass, and I am so burdened with what if's. I loved you Adam Fulkerson, you pressed me to define it, what was I supposed to do? I wish I had been able to tell you sooner, and then you never would have met her at all; would you be safe here with me today? Rest in Peace, my friend, maybe now you will know that you were truly loved, just a little surprised at the places that you have found it.

Monday, October 20th 2003 - 09:08:40 PM

 

In Memory of:: Will
Your Name: Serena
Relationship: son
Memoriam: God's Young Architect...He lives in a world of perfection now...There will be no more cries for help, but God has lifted him up to glory and perfection..''We loved you dearly for almost 28 years, and you are building mansions in heaven now in a world where there are no dimensions...''

We love and miss you...Mother and Clint

Monday, October 20th 2003 - 01:58:50 PM

 

In Memory of:: RG
Your Name: TF
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: We all miss you.

-Dewey House

Sunday, October 19th 2003 - 09:39:43 PM

 

In Memory of:: Aimee Christine Hill
Your Name: Hayley
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: I miss you Aimee, and I know God watched over you when you were crying for help, you were searching and I pray that you found him. I love you and the memories will never leave. You are still in our hearts forever. Its been 9 years, but it seems like yesterday. May God put peace on your soul.

Thursday, October 16th 2003 - 03:52:10 PM

 

In Memory of:: Robert Raymond Reynolds
Your Name: Melissa Schumacher
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: In a time where I have gone through my own hell with being bipolar, I would like to remeber my father and his trials.

Tuesday, October 14th 2003 - 11:11:10 PM

 

In Memory of:: Dr. David Tapley "TAP"
Your Name: Laura
Relationship: loving daughter
Memoriam: I miss you so much at times it is unbearable. I still have many unanswered questions, but at least I'm not scared of you anymore. I wish you were still here with me-you would be so proud of all I am doing. I love you!!!
 

Sunday, October 12th 2003 - 08:43:51 PM

 

In Memory of:: Bob Kammer 1-30-59 to 10-31-02
Your Name: Teri, Nate, Jared, Allison and Duane
Relationship: Wife and stepchildren
Memoriam: Dear Bob,
It's been almost a year now. The trees are turning and the smell of fall is in the air. A day doesn't go by we don't talk about you and miss you. If only then I knew what I know now. Jared has the disease and is being treated somewhat successfully. Your suicide has helped save his life. Nate see you alot and he bumped his head when he was talking the other day about how he wishes you were here to see how good he plays the guitar now. I told him that you know. I know God is taking good care of you and that you are where your sister is. I miss you terribly and get to your tree stand when I am able. This year has been the most difficult, but you have made me laugh. I love you.

Thursday, October 9th 2003 - 12:50:01 PM

 

In Memory of:: my dad
Your Name: monica
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: I wish I would have been here when you called. I know that you was crying out for help. I feel so guilty, I was out with my husband, I wished that I could have been here for you. I know that you are in heaven now, and that you are at peace. I now know that you are not in pain anymore. The kids miss you so much. Your little t-bone, is so sad, as well at the rest of us. We will never understand why. I just wished that I could have been here for you, I feel that i let you down. Keep watch over us. We will see you in heaven when we get there. Love you...and miss you...
 

Wednesday, October 8th 2003 - 08:49:02 PM

 

In Memory of:: my dad
Your Name: stacey
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: If only I had known the pain that you were in. You always had a smile on your face as if the world was fine. You have always been a great inspiration to me and were loved by everyone. Now I am comforted with the fact that you no longer fight your illness and are resting in heaven. You are greatly missed by everyone and will never be forgotten. The only nagging question is what if? and Why?
Love you always.

Wednesday, October 8th 2003 - 12:33:43 AM

 

In Memory of:: Andrew Michael Savage
Your Name: Sandra Savage
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: I love you forever Andrew. I will see you soon.

Saturday, September 27th 2003 - 03:19:56 PM

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