Q: Unhappy & Unenthusiastic about Life
Dear Dr. Phelps,
I have been diagnosed with bipolar about ten years ago. I am on lithium.
I am however very unhappy. I wonder if this is due to being bipolar or if
perhaps there is another reason in my life that is causing me to be generally
unhappy and unenthusiastic about about life. I don't know that I noticed
this behavior prior to being diagnosed with bipolar. I just can't recall that
many years ago and how I felt. I have no interest in anything. I
take also antidepressants. My doctor has switched to many different ones,
but I still feel the same. I lack joy in my life.
Dear Ms. W' --
You seem to be asking "could this be due to":
- my life circumstances;
- bipolar disorder;
- lithium; or
- something that happened to me from being ill for
this long; or
- maybe even the antidepressants.
Let's look briefly at each one. First, certainly
the life circumstances play some role; maybe a huge one. You're probably
either trying to change those or held back in doing so by these symptoms.
In either case, it might seem that you can't make much headway there.
Hopefully you've had the chance to work with a really good psychotherapist, and
I wouldn't give up trying to work this angle (and thus save risks of adding or
changing medications) until you had.
Second, bipolar disorder itself. Well, it can
definitely cause this sustained unhappiness, lack of enthusiasm, lack of
interest, lack of joy -- of course. But for that to be sustained, that is
show no "cycling", over ten years, that is not characteristic of
bipolar disorder. There would be some waxing and waning in most
people. Surely there are exceptions to such "rules", and you
might be one of them. It does seem as though what you're describing is THE
target for your current medication changes, in terms of having antidepressants
in there; and appropriately, as it sounds as though this lack of spark is the
main problem you face now (I hope there aren't others of similar
magnitude...). So we could conclude that this was part of the
bipolar disorder, and treat it as a target. In my view, if you've been on
antidepressants already (sounds like maybe even more than one at a time?), there
are other options to be examined like
some doc's I know would even consider a stimulant, depending on your age and
other medical conditions (e.g. low dose Ritalin).
Third, lithium: unfortunately this is a possibility
also. Some people, though in my experience it's not a whole lot of folks,
get "dulled" by lithium in a way that's pretty close to what you
describe. The only way to find out would be to taper off the lithium
slowly, and mind you, only under your doc's supervision and direction please;
don't do this on your own. There is recent data suggesting that when
anyone goes off lithium, it should be very slowly.
Fourth, is this a net effect of mood symptoms over time
(pretty close to #2 above, the bipolar explanation)? There is also
data that sustained mood symptoms, especially in the context of sustained social
stresses like losses and plenty of things to worry about and regret, can lead to
brain changes. People in this group often notice a really severe problem
with memory also. However, there is reason to believe that this can recover,
when mood symptoms and stresses are decreased. One of my patients who'd
been the hardest to treat finally just responded to good old nortryptiline, an
old antidepressant (plus lamotrigine and a little bit of risperidone); and her
memory dramatically improved when she had earlier been looking like she was
Finally, there are some antidepressants that can be
pretty dulling as well. They can make people feel really
"apathetic", though not so depressed sounding as you. So that's
worth considering if you're on a serotonergic antidepressant like Paxil or
Prozac or Zoloft.
I hope that something on that list will prove useful to
Published February, 2003